It's a … baby!

I bought the crib bedding yesterday which I’m really excited about.  It’s all going to be very simple and light colored. I’ll put pictures of baby Hailey’s room when It’s finished. I’m more concerned about getting an organized closet in order because I don’t want to buy another dresser. If i can hang the clothes I’ll be much better off!  I also need baskets for all 10348 blanket’s she’s got, and get a changing pad for on top of the dresser that I DO have.

i forgot why I was updating… remembering,.. remembering…oh! I must write a letter to the father of the baby before I go into labor, sort of like a birth plan, only not.

Dear husband:

I know that gross things, well, gross you out and sometimes you come close to vomiting in your mouth.  With that said, I give you all rights to leave the room or look away if something you see during birth disgusts you as long as you don’t do that “BRRR” thing you do. Reserve those for the fat ugly people you see. I know everything in the delivery room is suppose to be beautiful, but it’s not– we know that.  Also, once we walk into that hospital, nothing negative I say is what I mean toward you.  Don’t listen to anything I say besides “I love you,” and so forth.  You need to be my voice because I probably will be very distracted and/or drugged when nurses walk by.  If i say to out loud  that I want water, the first person you see you ask for some water.  If I say I’m in bad pain, you tell the first person you see that I’m in bad pain. Finally, if I look like a hot mess, sweaty, tears, runny make up, crazy hair… do not take any photos of ME until I can straighten myself up because I know they’re going straight to the internet.  Focus on our angel.

Sincerely,

your wife

I thought i’d document it right away that I believe my toes are starting to swell! I was sitting here and thought my feet felt rather warm.. I took my socks off and my toes looked a bit bloated!! i’m keeping my feet elevated now!

It’s hard to express what pregnancy food craving are like without using the words “obsessed”, “possessed”, or “determined.” I just woke up from a nap on the couch and found myself DRIVEN to eat something.  What was the food I wanted!? I didn’t KNOW!  I finally said dangit, dip get in your bed I have to go to the store and find out what the heck I want to eat. WELL turns out, the second I looked at the doughnuts that were no doubt sitting there for a day already, I was soothed. Just the thought of eating them confirmed that’s what I wanted.  This happens on a BASIS.  Most the time I’m at work though and can’t relieve my food cravings.

You, my baby Hailey, are like a blob in a lava lamp.  You’re just bopping around inside me, twisting, squirming, and sometimes sleeping. It’s so weird I can FEEL you, physically put my hands on the sides of my belly and feel you.  It’s like I’m holding you but you’re inside me in some cocoon.  I assume you’re happy in there…. but you’re coming out soon!! I bought your bedside sleeper that you’ll be sleeping in for probably the first few months of your life. I hope you’ll be pleased by it.  You’re not a cheap date ya know.

This is last weeks picture, haven’t done one for the existing week. (week 31)

I spent the day sleeping and I think it energized you! You haven’t stopped squirming around since I woke up!

When you kick me, or move, or whatever you’re doing… I can feel you on both sides of my stomach. Like, from pelvic bone, to pelvic bone.

I have a doctors appointment next Friday because one of my ligaments was giving me pain and the woman on the phone suggested i move my appointment up so that a nurse can asses my pain.  I just want to see you! I want to have another ultrasound.

You like: Apples, and chicken (not together) and every morning after I eat breakfast you’re so thankful.
Also, CURSE YOU! doughnuts give me heartburn!! what is that!!!

This is me at 27 weeks

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Your father asked me if I’m ever going to write in this thing, and so I suppose  I should honor his wishes.
As I type, you’re kicking me.  Or you’re just moving really violently.  I was going to post a video of you kicking me (view of my stomach while it happens) but it won’t work! I did however get to see you in 3D, 4D even– this month.  It was amazing.  It was like you were right there in front of me.  Best of all you look just like me!

I know all wrinkly babies look the same but you have my mouth, and slightly my nose.  Dad contributes too, your feet are in your face because you’re so LONG!  you’re literally kicking yourself in the face in some of the pictures we have of you.  We have your crib, we have your stroller, car seat and carrier.  We have your bouncer, and your swing.  You have more than enough 0-3 & 3-6mo clothing too.  Although there’s plenty more i need to buy for you, I think we’re pretty ready. Not emotionally or psychologically though!!

You’re making me gain weight that is going to be horrible to take off.  I’m hoping it’s all fluids. :]

We only have a few more weeks left and after that you won’t just be a kicking sensation inside my abdomen.

So it’s been a while since I wrote last.  You’re yawning and hiccuping and rolling around like crazy. I can feel you, definitely.

I had two baby showers for you back home in Michigan.  You got so much love from family and friends!  It was also your first plane ride.

The doc told me I was gaining too much weight and that if I’m gaining like this when I go in next she’s going to make me have a growth scan done.  That means you may be growning a little bit bigger and faster than they thought!

I could sit here and feel you kick me endlessly.  It’s relaxing. I wish I could see inside me!! It’s so crazy what you can do now, and I have no say or connection to your movements.

CRAZILY ENOUGH, I’ll be in my third trimester at the end of the month.  Time flies, and i’m not ready for it!

if i could see you, this is what you’d look like:

Well, today we found out that you’re a girl!  19 weeks and 1 day.

You weight approximately 12 oz right now, and according to babycenter.com, that’s the average weight of a 21 wk old! you’re growing very large.  That’s a good thing, because well, why would I say it’s a bad thing?

You’re sucking your thumb now, and you had the hiccups when I saw you. :] It was so adorable.

I imagine you’re going to be about 6-foot tall.  And beautiful.  We’re thinking of Hailey Marie as your name, but if one day you see this, anyone sees this, and that’s not your name… well–we’ve discovered something that fits you more.

You move a lot, and soon I’ll actually be able to feel it and won’t be able to sleep, and you’ll probably even hurt me. All I feel right now are small pulsations in my lowest abdomen.

Well now that we know you’re a girl we’re going to buy a bunch of pink stuff, but I don’t want you to be too girly, I want you to be like me and your grandma and wear jeans a lot, with old t-shirts, and you need to do sports.  Your dad will make you do sports so just come out of the womb expecting to play all of them.  And he’s also decided that you’re not having a cell phone until you’re like 14, sorry.  And if and when you decide to date, that’s when he’s going to buy a shot gun and start to clean it in the living room.

I’m really showing now.. at 16+6. Tomorrow I’ll be 17 weeks! it’s hard to believe.  I didn’t get to see you at my appointment on Friday, and I’m sad! I wanted to see you!! It’s hard to believe something is happening inside me besides the belly bulge.

I’m going to be planning an ultra sound to find out your sex soon, baby.  I don’t care what you are– as long as you’re healthy. Then soon after that you’re going to go on your first plane ride to Michigan.

haven’t feel you distinctively move yet… I’m waiting on that!!!

I know I’m here, because I don’t feel pregnant anymore.  Pregnant being— nauseous, bloated, not hungry, and so forth. but I’m feeling 85% more like my usual self.  I’m still tired most the time, but I can eat.  I’d much rather be sleeping than doing anything any day though.

I finally bought some clothes that will fit me as you bulge out my mid line. Goodwill, and clearance racks, and a bella band.

Until I’m round, and waddling, I don’t think I’m going to feel pregnant.  I still just feel fat. Not in some desperate cry for attention and reassurance, I just literally feel fat. I poke my belly and it’s just flub.  BUT AT LEAST customers at work actually notice that I’m pregnant, they actually jump onto that limb and say something.  So to people that don’t see me daily, I apparently appear pregnant.  There’s a certain threshold you have to pass for someone to actually take a chance and ask or say something.  and I am yet to mess with their heads.. :]

Well baby, in the next few weeks I might feel you moving, and I think that will get me though those specific days.  I’ll hold conversations with your movements because sometimes I need to talk to someone at work and your dad isn’t around.  Your movements will be our bonding.

the pharmaceutical world would have come up with a pregnancy safe drug that you can get any where to treat migraines.  Instead you have to go see your nurse, or midwife to get help from migraines.  I can hold off until Oct 9th to seek prescription, but it’s just a pain. LITERALLY.  The things us mothers have to abstain from just to keep you alive and well.  As Robin Williams once said in a movie, “if  life is so important, than why is it so d*mn fragile.” Well, something close to that. and it’s true.

Anyway, you’re the size of my fist clenched up right now, and we’re in our second trimester. I’m going to beg and plead to see you in a few weeks and maybe we’ll be able to see your gender! You’re still a mystery.